this week one of my student's fathers (who just got out of jail) stole his mom's truck.
last week one of my students whose father is an alcoholic and whose two older brothers are both in juvey and only owns his uniform clothes moved off to FL where I hope to God someone will take care of him better than here.
two weeks ago one of my students was crying every 5 minutes in class because she was worried that her family wouldn't be able to pay their mortgage. When I was a kid, I didn't even realize my parents HAD a mortgage.
This job of teaching inner city kids is emotionally draining, at times feels completely pointless, and makes me, more than anything else, doubt that God really loves these kids. However, here is a quote from Brennan Manning that is slowly sinking into my distrusting heart:
"The basic premise of biblical trust is the conviction that God wants us to grow, to unfold, and to experience fullness of life. However, this kind of trust is acquired only gradually and most often through a series of crises and trials...David, the most beloved figure of Jewish history, was no stranger to terror, loneliness, failure, and even sinister plots to destroy him; yet he ravished the heart of God with his unwavering trust."
It seems then that trust that God is good comes through situations where it really looks like God is actually not good at all.
2 comments:
yes!!!! this is what we are supposed to be doing - any less, and how can we call ourselves followers of Christ?
Awesome, Lace. Awesome =]
Amen Lou. Te quiero como un gordito quiere chocolate.
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